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deadcell18
Oct. 5th, 2007
12:55 pm
seriously just stop it. no one cares about ur little comments. your not better than me, so stop acting it. ur just a fucked as the next person. stop thinking your so special. if someone does something nice for you, you dont appreciate it, so guess what, thats not gonna happen again. go sort out your "oh so great" life, cus u know its just not. fucking grow up everyone is sick of your bullshit.
Sep. 12th, 2007
12:02 am
completely and utterly just fuck the past. fuck all the shit they did to me a million years ago i dont even know why i let it bother me. im a better person now, im not the weak shy person they knew me as. im stronger, happier and i know what i want in life.
fuck u fuckers.
im concerntrating on the now and the future, and thats that. if u dont wanna know me then fine, ur gonna get left behind n i dont care. nows the time to decide.
Aug. 31st, 2007
06:06 pm
fucking hell. so this is what it is like to be clean off medication, its been 4 years. im so light headed and my vision is shakey. lets hope i dont go down hill. and if i do id hate to think :(
Aug. 27th, 2007
01:29 am
tonight was good. i enjoyed it.
then back to reality.
why do you forgive people so easily? after all that shit and lies she said about you? i dont care if shes your fucking family, its not on. and i certainly wont be forgiving her any time soon. she needs a fucking reality check if she think shes going to get through life just by making up stuff to get her own way.
have fun at uni, everyone is going to LOVE you.
sort it out you fucking trout pout whore.
Aug. 23rd, 2007
Aug. 21st, 2007
11:24 pm
tonight i went out with some friends from school. it was fucking weird, not seen some of em in 4 years.
at the pub there was like 20 other ppl i knew from primary and secondary school, its like the closest pub to both schools. they dont venture much! fucking weird tho.
how much ppl change, then theres me. same old me. fucking boring never changing. argh
Aug. 18th, 2007
01:50 am - i've ran through the garden of evil
dont tell me what i do or dont like. it is me you know, i do know, i can tell! if i dont like it i dont like it. do i need a fucking reason.
im negative? im not negative i just know how things are. you'll say something will happen, then it doesnt. so why should i even begin to believe that it will. its not being negative, its just not getting hopes up. things change within a second. i know how it works. so i stop trying, stop believing.
if you want to know me, u fucking come to me. im not running after you anymore.
no more shit feelings about the past. i just made up with someone whos boyfriend was cheating on her with me. no hard feelings, shes so moved on. so i will take that as an example.
when i go out with school friends on tues ( ones i dont hate and havent seen properly for over 3 years) no negative shit, just future and now.
Aug. 15th, 2007
11:37 pm
havent had a day this stressful at work for ages. im not even gonna go into it again, i'll just get worked up again.
so now i shall drink vodka and eat dark toberlarone. thank u pls.
Aug. 11th, 2007
Aug. 5th, 2007
06:34 pm
this afternoon i went out for a walk with my camera. something i havent done for months. looking for creative insperation. and just infront of the houses i live behind, i found a nature resereve with a stream, ponds and ducks! its so beautful. i now have somewhere i can go on my own, to think or just to walk. ellenbrook parkkk!
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